Rock drowns tears well.
Slow burn or howling screams.
The beats of the drums crowding with guitar pangs tear apart and stitch it all together.
I am whole again.
Solace.
'With or without you.'
I am here.
Too many words.
Curses hurled over my head.
'Wonderwall' protects my sanity.
No man's land. They don't understand. I don't wanna make them. Too tired to explain myself. They judge nevertheless. Kindness is a lie. Jibes hurt only too much. Self-respect and infatuations fight tooth and nail. In the end, panic wins.
Disco lights and conundrum.
I run scared through walls in tunnels in prolonged nightmares.
I can't protect her from the one she chose to love, in sickness and in health. .
Faith is fickle.
My abuelita tells me it will all be okay. I want to believe her. I do.
I close my eyes and count to ten. Hide my silent sobs in her quiet prayers.
Cashmere sleeves hide her scars.
Turn up the volume. 'Your body's a wonderland.'
I think she's going deaf.
Abuses can't reach her anymore.
Rock and roll can take a caffeine break.
For now. .
#reverie
From the archives, 2019
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