Old friend

Someday soon I'll stop vying for attention

I know this familiar feeling

Like an old friend with a sad smile on her lips

Knowing eyes filled with sympathy and regret

Hoped for a better ending this time

You and I both

Yet we somehow keep running into each other

Stuck in this merry-go-round forever

Destined to be each other's muses

Rejection and me.

I couldn't write you letters

Ink bleeds me dry

I refuse to shed tears over the same old patterns repeating themselves

Duty? What of it?

Don't feel sorry for me, I beg

Your pity is worse than your scorns

Such peaceful snores

I wanna strangle my dreams

Like the last whimsical poetry you tore from me

Throw your money and your big words back at you.

Carry my rebuttals like a badge of honour

Your name on my hands

Dried up wounds

Baked to your skin

Blood and bones

Lies and more

Light leaving your eyes

Innocence shining still

The night is quiet

Your heartbeats loud

My pathos knows no mercy

Just like your shrugs.