Looking back at 2016 me




2016 me probably deserved so much more love than she let on
Love that could encompass her, hold her tightly and heal all those jagged corners sticking out in sharp edges as defensive barbs
She was self conscious and so ruthlessly bothered about her appearance
She disliked her body, her skin, her hair, her complexion
She envied others for those same things that she covetted
She hated how she looked
Craved affection and attention from all the wrong kinds of people
Was jealous of the people she probably should have befriended and taken inspiration from
She was so unhappy about herself that envy became second nature to her
She was unknowingly unkind and mean and such a big pick-me
However, she was so energetic
She loved poetry and art and photography
She tried so hard at everything
And felt so much
I wish she could know that she was soon going to be loved and understood and cared for despite everything, inspite of it all, and all that love would be overlooked by her
'cause love doesn't require chasing and changing or achieving
But she will grow up and learn, unlearn and re-learn so much 
About life, people and most of all about herself
She will face crazy, unthinkable situations and have break-downs - so many of those
And she will put up a fight 'cause she had so much fight in her

To 2016 me, just hold on
It gets better, and then a lot worse
And then better again!


#reverie

#persephone_writes

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