Life these days consists of an endless onslaught of dejávù.
Neon lights, anxiety, nausea, night terrors
Hook, line and sinker for the same old story
We all know the ending and yet.
Sipping on another cup of Americano
Skipped the sugar this time
He tells me some ridiculous first-date story in hopes of eliciting a laugh or two
I fake a smile for his sake again
My stomach turns at the doe-eyed look they exchange
The vacancy in my expression doesn't give me away I hope
They're dancing to some slow song which I tune out
I am already counting backwards from 100 in my head
Shut out the noise, cancel the taciturn rhythm of my tell-tale heart as it prepares for another meltdown
Not now, he glares at me from behind his glasses
I breathe in through my mouth
The staleness of cigarettes and something stronger fills the air
Missing you is a habit I try to quell
But missing my old self is an unfortunate side-effect
The pills will hit soon I hope as I slowly close my eyes refusing to be a witness to this pity party thrown in honour of my departing sanity.
#reverie
Dec 26, 2022
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