Reverie

Remember the rains in summer? The sudden gusts of wind, the smiles it pulled With the smell of home and hope and sudden romance? Getting drenched in relief  Our laughter mingling as we rushed past the teeming traffic Colourful umbrellas, puddles and rainbows Our hands held tight, hearts beating fast? On days like this, I often close my eyes And allow myself to travel back in time To those carefree days of youth and joy And rain and laughter And old-school romance. #reverie

Why is it always the head and never the heart? Is it really a good defense mechanism or plain fear?  Stop, I can't count my losses anymore. I wrap all the pain up around me and take another nap wishing not to wake up. All this pretense makes the mind cloudy, how do you go on pretending not to care? I no longer pray for their happiness. Maybe happiness is not real. I am too scared of the water to learn to swim. Maybe drowning isn't that bad. #reverie

Oh my lonely love Talking, talking, words slowly dripping All over the carpet of my being Vanishing mistletoes  Our forever didn't last long Singing softly screaming internally Mayhem madness chaotic calmness I loved you so Past tense scratched off your list Another old memory to burn Casual sex cruel games Meaning and subtext Brimming blues Miss your hands Walk with me Take me with you  Wherever you go. #reverie