Reverie

 Of late life has become this series of: "Congratulations, here's one more thing you really suck at!" Another life skill you thought you'd excel in but whoopedoo whattashocker you're a total lost cause.  Inevitably some days you get up and pat yourself on the back saying, "With practice it'll get better. You just need more practice!" Hello, who are we kidding? It's been a long trial run. An onslaught of failed attempts. Maybe that is what adulting ultimately is. Putting on a brave face at the face of cascading failures and disappointments. Brushing the dust off, chugging down another cup of (not so well brewed) coffee that has gone cold and typing out a long draft of a cover letter.  Going at life wearing a "Hustle culture" tee and crying on the bus ride home. Picking up groceries and being ghosted on dating apps. Navigating stock markets and bulk ordering on a black friday sale.  A merry-go-round of birthdays, anniversaries and funeral